BUSY? BUSY! BUSY?!

I guess, I am really, extremely, incredibly, completely free and boring these days.

Sitting there, pressing my calculator, calculating how much time I have in a day. This sound meaningless and I know it. However, I think it make sense, perhaps not everyone but me.

Let’s start the calculation. There are 24 hours; total 1440 minutes, or total 86400 seconds in a day.

Deducted working hours, about 9 hours; sleeping time, about 7 hours; having meals, about 2 hours; Miscellaneous, about 1 hour. I still have 5 hours or 300 minutes of free and unoccupied times in a day, basically more than that I think. Hmmm…sound like I have plenty of time to do whatever I want, whatever I wish in a normal working weekday.

Last time, I always believe that there are some people are really busy. I changed my mind until I realized something and I read this somewhere.

‘Nobody is ever too busy, if they care, they will make time.’

This is my favorite quote lately.  I guess this is also why I went and calculated how much time I have in a day because I am wondering is there anyone out there is relatively busy or just using BUSY as an excuse.

Seriously, I am kind of pissed off when people repeatedly using BUSY as a reason. I did used BUSY as a reason before, and I knew that it’s definitely just an excuse. An excuse that sounds reasonable and acceptable for most of the people. But, please do not use this on me ANYMORE. I am totally pissed off lately.

For me, you just don’t care, don’t mind, and don’t matter. Just that simple, don’t blame on works, don’t blame on timing and don’t blame on anything else. If you care, you make time. Don't tell me you can't even 'make' 5 minutes out. I was being too kind and too innocent previously,  now I don't give a damn. Perhaps, you will think that I might be over thinking or too sensitive on this.  The answer is, yes because I mind, I care and it’s really matter to me if you are the person that really important to me.  

So, please think wisely before you explain or talk to me. And also don't judge me like I am so great and so understanding. I am just a human with all kind of emotions.

I shouldn't have hard feelings on this. Anyway, I am fine; just want to express my negative emotions here. Hope it won’t bother anyone. Thanks for letting me know that who really matters, who never did, who always will. I have answers in my heart now and I know what to do next.

14 August 2013

Today is hot. 

Of cause I mean the weather as well as the atmosphere in my office.

I learnt something today, emotions management in working place, especially those negative emotions is rather important. 

Came to work as usual. Almost everyone were back from raya holidays. Glad to meet my colleagues because I had been working alone in the lab for almost 1 week. The atmosphere seem abnormal and tensed since yesterday's incident ( ya, it had happened once yesterday, just the characters involved were different). 

I do not know what's going on and suddenly I heard people spoke LOUDLY. The conversation between my manager and account clerk attracted all the staffs in the lab. And the conversation had developed into quarrel, a quarrel between women. 

I was just sitting nearby with my reports and I had no ideas what to do. It's not a wise idea to involve in the fight while both of them were in anger and there are enough people . The reason why they quarreled is not important here, it's a long long story. In the end, the one with the louder voice, my lab manager won the 'battle'. 

What can I see here is, educational attainment always not equal to emotional intelligence. Anger is a normal and even healthy emotion, but it's important to deal with it in a positive and proper way. I couldn't believe that a person that I work with everyday, a person that looked so kind and polite suddenly shouted like a mad woman, scolded with extremely high pitched voice while pointed with her fingers, bang the door, threw things like a kid in front of her subordinates. Yes, I am one of her subordinates. 

Dear manager, you did shocked me and others. I wouldn't say you are wrong in expressing your anger because anger is a completely normal and usually healthy human emotion. I do feel angry or lost control sometimes, it's relatively normal. BUT please control, and suppress your anger in front of your subordinates and others colleague. You are our lab manager and a mature adult. Sorry to say that, your anger lead to problems. Situation turned worst now. What a day!

I do not know what will be happen next. Worst? or the other way around? But guess there will be another fight. Seriously, I don't like to watch or even involve into this kind of 'drama'. It's kind of wasting my precious times. Now, I feel appreciated of getting the chance to run the problematic and annonying Atomic Absorption Spectroscopy in lab because I can always express my anger toward the equipment and most importantly it won't fight back. I started to love you, AAS ! (but please be nice to me!)

    

Please, I just want to work in peace. 

Please, do not harm us, we are innocent. 

Please, give me back a healthy working environment.

Last but not least,

Please, do not involved me in this kind of foolish arguments.

p/s: Dear Boss, I feel sorry to you. We are waiting for you to solve this! I believe you can settle it well. Good luck to you!